Danman is right. Don’t blame yourself, you didn’t make him have coke. It was his choice and he has ruined his life and yours too. It is heartbreaking.
My husband said he didn’t love me anymore. Cocaine changes you. One day you are blissfully happy next day they are gone. They don’t care anymore. As sudden as that, you are not alone there are loads of us in this situation.
Definitely don’t listen to his bull shit.