I’ve really appreciated talking to you. I read your post. Also step-mumming to his 12yo boy who lives with us, it’s hard! He’s not hiding his drinking or drugs from you, long may that continue so allowing the emotional and physical space for it seems good. A life with you and a future is a wonderful thing to hold on to but it can’t be the only good thing. When you fight all will seem hopeless, lost and pointless. In the right frame of mind your success will inspire him. If this is forever, 6 months or 2 years is a drop in the ocean and it doesn’t matter if its shit right now. You wanting to save him is a beautiful thing, he needs to want to save himself. I’m prepared for things to get much harder before they get easier. How about keeping a diary of the good things and the sweet comments, something for you to focus on and look at when times get tough xx