Dear all
These posts have been invaluable to me to give me a tiny voice which tells me I’m not alone. That tiny voice has to fight with the more powerful self destructive voices which constantly tell me I’ve failed. However, I am beginning to realise that those voices are what my daughter relies on to keep me in the position she wants; the one which will constantly pick her up; bail her out and make everything ok again.
She is nowhere near as bad as she was but I have gone to talking therapy for me. When she needed it she refused it and thought that the drugs would fix it… Well that is turning out well! I have to allow myself that 50 minutes every week to start fixing me and my self belief.
To all of you who have posted on here thank you. It is painful and yet powerful. X