Hi Jackie,
Thanks for sharing your story. I can imagine the heartbreak you are going through.
I am glad that you have people there for you but if you would like some support from some one who is trained and experienced in this, and would understand what you are dealing with, please contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that offers support to people like yourself dealing with the addiction of a family member. If you think it would help please contact us and I will put you in touch with one of our people who you could talk with.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Really hope that this will help.