My son is on methadone and still using, he was on the streets and then went to prison for 3 weeks , when he came out I thought this is it , but it isn’t. I feel like I’m coming to the end with it all and chucking him out . I’ve done everything possible and even let him back into my home again , it’s bloody heartbreaking , I find some comfort in reading book about addicts and it learns me stuff I never knew . But one things for sure , my son is not ready to give up , this I know . I believe he’ll be back in prison soon and I can rest easy and sleep soundly . My heart goes out to you and everyone on here . Sometimes we have to think of ourselves and our own welfare and the rest of our family . One thing is very true they will only stop when they are ready , doesn’t matter about substitute or breaking their parents hearts or seeing their mother crying , they only care about their next fix . So we must go on and try to fix ourselves as we cannot fix them , only they can do that . If you want the names of any books I have quite a few I can point you towards just ask . They may bring you some comfort as they do me
