No he hasn’t got the right people around him at all. All of his friends use including his work colleagues. He has lost the friends he had that didn’t use cocaine because he was in such a mess. That’s why I feel a lot of guilt as really I’m the only person he has and now I’ve decided to spilt up with him because of the drug taking.
Because we are still living together he still thinks that we are still in a relationship. But in my head I know that we are not. And the flat is in on the market. He has been really sweet organising mother’s day meal at home for me and then he pulled out a bottle of wine and I’m just thinking to myself I know where tomorrow is heading now. He ruined my first ever mother’s day as a mum by taking drugs all night and I can just see it happening again.
Regarding the step mum, I texted her the night after it all happened saying that I was disappointed that she offered him drugs and she knew full well the situation we was in. She never texted back. Instead she has totally stopped talking to me and to be honest I am really not bothered. She is not instrumental in my life what so ever. It’s sad it’s got this way and I still speak to her daughter who has a child a year younger than mine. He daughter has no idea why we don’t speak. I’m sure her mum has make up some b*llsh*t story to cover it all up. I’ve come to a point where I don’t care if people talk about me, I know the truth.
It sounds to me that your boyfriend needs some space. It’s really difficult when someone tells you that as it can feel like rejection, but it’s not. It’s a good thing that he trying to sort himself out. But don’t live your life thinking, is he going to talk or want to see my this weekend? It will drive you nuts! I found myself living through my partner and not really having a life of my own and pandering to his every need. I guess it’s all that you can think about at the moment right? The thing is we as partners are so desperate to just sort everything out. for it to be all ok. The painful truth of it all is they will get the help when they are ready. What I’ve learnt is that I don’t have a influence of when this will happen. Just be there for that moment. Even though me and my ex aren’t together when that day comes I will do everything I can to support him.