I’m so sorry Willow that you are having such a difficult time due to your son’s addiction. It sounds like he is getting some help but I was wondering if you might like a bit of support for yourself.
The Icarus Trust is a charity that offers support to people that are in yours situation. We know how difficult this can be so we have trained and experienced people you could talk things though with. If you contact us we could also signpost what other help there is in your area.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck with everything.