Hi
I’m sorry to hear your story, I’m in a similar situation however my boyfriend is now 3 weeks sober and quit after 10 years. He told me he needed space and doesn’t know how he’ll feel after this journey at the moment he feels numb. I’ve not seen him for three weeks and not spoke to him for three days now. I miss him so much. I’ve been at the point of not eating and lost a lot of weight however I feel I’m getting stronger but also hope he reaches out to me and comes back to me. I understand where your coming from with lockdown it makes it worse doesn’t it and almost as thought your vulnerable.
Hopefully he will be sick of the life of drugs and reach out to you. However he will only do that when he has his own “eureka” moment I guess. Have you tried to call him or text? Is he ignoring you? X