Sorry it’s taken me so long to reply but with this whole isolation thing, I’ve had some ups and downs.
I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through all of this but I’m glad you do have your son.
He says he wants to get help but doesn’t. We’re supposed to be in quarantine but he went to see someone last week, ended up drinking and coming back home after 11pm. He left again yesterday and hasn’t come back.
I’ve tried to support him. I’ve gone to Al-anon, I’ve tried to work on myself and not tell him what to do and I’ve tried to support him but he doesn’t want to help himself and to be honest, I’m fed up. I love him but I’m not in love with him if that makes sense? He doesn’t see that he’s two different people and it breaks my heart to think that I’m going to lose my best friend but if I don’t take a step back now, I know I’ll only be harming myself even more. His behaviour has been selfish and it disgusts me that even now when everyone is doing their bit, he has to go drinking and smoking weed. I just feel lost and alone and it hurts I can’t even be around family…
I wish you all the luck in your fresh start. You and your child are the most important things at the end of the day!