It definitely sucks when they’re functionable addicts it’s the hardest part because you can’t be mad they’re holding down a job but then they’re spending the money that they’re earning I so totally get that that’s what mine does he’s functioning he has a decent job he’s lucky cuz right now because of the coronavirus he still has a job but he gets mad because now I’m paranoid that he’s going to go ballistic because his hours are getting cut he’s getting bored and he can’t sit at home for more than that without freaking out like he has to constantly be doing something and he even said that the out the last hour while he’s at work as when is the hardest for him not to want to go get high or getting drunk because he doesn’t want to be home it hurts and it’s a painful process I mean at least yours lets you take over the credit cards and everything else he’s always told me oh I’ll let you do the bills I’ll give you the money and then he gives it to me for like 2 days and then he goes now I’m going to take it back because you’re going to leave but I definitely get the whole they think that you’re cheating on them when you don’t literally do anything your life revolves around your family and your kids and taking care of them I mean it’s gotten so bad I make sure that he knows when I’m taking a bath or shower so he can’t sit there and say I’m I cheated on him so I’m cleaning the scent of the other person off of me it gets ridiculous at this point I love him I want to help him I have my degree in Psychology I understand psychologically what he’s going through but there’s a large part of my brain that says why are you doing this you already said that you hate it that you don’t like how it makes you paranoid you don’t like how it makes you feel then why do it and the fighting is just getting ridiculous I mean it’s like everyday now for like the last 2 weeks and I know it’s going to get worse
