Well I’m same as you. But I’m 3 week clean today, and im doing my best to stop. I hate the stuff.
First are you with anyone? Kids? Work? Live on your own or partner?
And the good thing is you are now admitting you have a problem. 1st thing is you need to all dealers numbers, friends and family who use as well , come off all social media – Facebook, Insta , snap chat watts app.the lot!.
Dealers are on there and seeing people and there fake lifes makes you want to use.
No alcohol what so ever. Look up your local drug help clinic as well.
You now after all this need some new hobbies to keep your mind busy: reading,exercise, walking, decorate. Anything you want really. I’ve took up reading I’ve read a few books now and I set my self a task of learning a new word each day lol.
Another thing I do is watch and listen to cocaine recovery stories on you tube and podcast. These help alot. Buy some true stories of peoples cocaine addiction autobiography – these help alot, you might not think it but they do.
Also search on you tube – louise Clarke on crack Cocaine part 1 23. Her videos will help you a lot. And also search recovery mum. She has some great vids.
Theres a lot more but that’s just for now
So delete every 1 to do with coke basically and don’t even see them anymore. Then find some new hobbies and set your self some targets. Also download pocket rehab it’s a great app and helps.
Feel free to ask me out.
Do you know about emotional , mental and physical relapse? And about dopamine and how it effects on you on coke?