[hea0602]

The problem is I’ll go home on my own after the sesh and carry on because I feel like I can’t stop it.

I think the realisation has hit that I do need to completely stop, every time I now go down the pub or out with the lads I tell myself I’ll only do a ticket and be home asleep by midnight but that never happens and it always leads to a roll through. I do really need to completely knock it on the head.

The reason I posted last night is I was sat in my lounge on my own doing line after line, feeling disgusted by what I was doing but not being able to stop.