Hi Kells bells
Your story is so sad, 24 years is a long time to be with someone and to have to watch them change so much in such a short time. His recent decline sounds to have been quite quick and the lock down is truly awful for people already suffering from anxiety.
I left my husband in February because I couldn’t cope with his poor mental health and drinking. It was like living with a ticking time bomb, some days he would be ok and others he would explode and become an evil monster.
But he just couldn’t see that he was doing anything wrong and would turn the blame on to me, saying that I was being too oppressive, trying to control him and smothering him because I am insecure.
I worry about what will become of him now I have left, we still talk but it is hard one day things seem positive and the next he pushes away. I know I have done the right thing by leaving but I also feel like I have abandoned him. It’s so sad.