replying to xsb95
Hello, and thank you for your response it means a lot to me. It’s been a very tough 4 years I was living away at university when I found out from my brother about her addiction when he found a pipe in her bag. I managed to graduate university as a nurse with a 2:1 I don’t know how because i cried myself to sleep every single night. However my brother hasn’t been so lucky, he stopped seeing friends, dropped out of university, hasn’t had a job he is now 22. All I have is my mum to blame for this, although she never takes responsibility for her actions always someone else to blame. Well now people are starting to notice that she looks like your typical addict.
Sharing my story has gave me a little bit of relief. I know I shouldn’t be embarrassed of my mum, but I am. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy I think it’s been harder for me because she used to be ‘normal’ but addiction has got the better of her. I just wish she could see the pain it has caused her children but I suppose you can’t force something to get off drugs. I feel like I’m missing out on mother and daughter memories because everyday I wake up worried that she’s going to die.
Our family haven’t ever been supportive at first they tried to help but now no one bothers with her.