Hi Bella,
I’m sorry to read your post and see the impact that your boyfriend’s drug habit is having on you. So sad that you haven’t got people around you that you feel you can talk to.
I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust. We offer support to people dealing with a partner’s addiction as we know how hard this can be. If you contact us I could put you in touch with one of our trained and very experienced people who would understand what you are going through. If you think it would help talking please get in touch. May be it would help you to feel not so alone.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Take care and good luck.