Hi
I’m very sad reading your posts. I really feel for you being in this horrible situation through no fault of your own. It is very hard to know that he has got to want to put things right for himself. But you really are doing all the right things. I’m glad you are finding support here and in your group but if you would like any one else to talk with please contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that offers support to people in the same situation as yourself.
Maybe talking to one of our trained people would help you to answer some of your questions and make sense of what you are feeling.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope this might help. Take care of yourself.