Thankyou for your reply, it really does mean a lot. My son actually plucked up the courage to speak to his dad , first time and it broke him. It broke me knowing he’s had to do it and my partner looks broken since they chatted. he hasn’t drank in 5 days now but Im sure it will come at some point. I know what you mean about your mom, I feel same way about him. How can I hate him when he’s back to normal, but I do resent him for putting us through it. I’m angry with myself that our kids memories will have happy times but also some scarey ones from after effects of his drinking. He seems more distant than usual at moment, goes to work then home to bed. He seems agitated with me pretty much all the time. I have constant sick feeling that when he drinks everything he’s bottling up right now will pour out. You keep safe too x
