Yep, it’s like our partners are the same person! I think with the lockdown, has caused him to go into self destruct mode, as soon as he left me to isolate with his mum he has just gone downhill, just rang me drunk/high and told me he didn’t want this anymore and that he wants to be on his own. Then that’s it, he’s just ignored me since, even when I tried to offer love and support he threw it back in my face and told me I need to go and ‘fix myself’. I struggling to cope with it too, we were so happy and he constantly told me how much he loved me, and now its like he hates me. I’m the same as you, I wish I could just let go, I know we can’t do anything to help but it’s so hard when you love someone and you know they don’t want to use. I have tried to take a step back and leave him be seeing as he couldn’t care less about me rn, I’m getting myself some counselling to deal with the pain, maybe it’s something you should think about too? I stupidly want him to come back to me and realise what he’s done when he’s a bit more clearminded but equally I know I should just let go. It’s so tough. Just know you’re not alone, reading this forum and talking to others is helping me a little. Sending lots of love x
