Thank you so much for your honesty.
I dont think he is using at the moment but i cant 100% know when he has lied before. But to be honest until I found the bags before xmas i hadnt know then whole time we had been together because i didnt know anything about drugs.
Hes never got money but nows hes saying its paying off old drug debt, not sure how thats any better tho when it could have been a holiday or a wedding.
Hes always got a runny nose but says it’s hayfever. I dont know what to believe any more.
I think im holding on to the person i fell in love with. And if hes clean now and does seem in a better state mentally i cant see him in the same light any more.
And i do feel a fool for allowing myself to put up with it all. So in a way i feel like iv allowed him to treat me in this way.
And you right about the free ride. Hes got money to pay drug debt and cocaine when he was using but doesnt consistanly put money into the home where he lives and eats.