I cant thank you enough for your support and advice. Its been a relief just to speak to someone who understands, and know thats its not just me thinking these things.
I just dont know how he would be using when we are in isolation at the moment, but then again i didnt know when he was getting up off the sofa next to me and ‘fetching something from his van’ then coming back in. Which is what he did!
I dont know anything any more!
How have you managed to distance yourself from it?
The hardest part for me is not knowing whats true and whats lies.
And knowing hes done that and come back to the family home. He may well say its in the past now (we are only talking December) but for me its not in the past at all. If im being honest with myself is the first time iv said it but i dont want to settle for things like this. I feel like hes not the person i met. And hes making me into a person i dont want to be.