I can relate to absolutely everything you are saying to me, and i know what your saying is right. Im mad at myself for not packing his bags, but then another part of me wants him to be the man i know he can be.
You said it made you angry and swear at him etc. And thats what im like, and done all of those things. I check his wallet and listen when hes on the phone.
I would have never ever done those things before. I was so kind to him and would have done anything for him, had respect for him. I wouldnt have agreed to marry him if had seen what he was like when using. He was the same as you said. Agressive, so so paranoid about what i was up to and who with, wanted explanations for everything. Then after he would like so snappy and sometimes that anxious he would pick all the skin on his face till it bled.
I know there is only me that can do something about it. I have already emotionally withdrawn from him and we havent been having a physical relationship i think thats me putting my barriers up. He just thinks the problem now is me and that i should just get over it.