I dont know how you have coped through that it must have been tough.
Your are exactly right, i do keep thinking of good times and the night he proposed to me. My birthday last year. They were the best times.
My birthday this year was last week, i went to bed at 9pm crying because he wasnt being very nice. He criticises my parenting but had little to do with his own children something that i have only ever tried to encourage more of. He says i do too much for my children. They aways have and always will be my life and they come before anyone, including myself! I take pride in the fact i have raised my kids mostly alone and always been there for them. Not lately but before he has said some absolutely awful things. Things normal people wouldn’t even think about.