you really have to start considering getting him out of your life. And be prepared for the begging, bargaining. Even if he admits to it, he will say “I will get help, I will change.’ I doubt, however, he will admit to anything right now. Like me, you would have to present him with evidence.
‘You do too much for your children.’? Alarm bells should be ringing my darling. No caring loving man would say that.
Don’t worry, I had two ruined birthdays with him. One, he threw a fit and stormed off because his sister disagreed with him about something totally inconsequential. Last year, having cut him out of my life, he hand posted a £1 card, saying he had to let me go. This year.. 3 weeks away, he WON’T be spoiling another one. Even alone, it will be better without him. Because I will have peace of mind, and I won’t be crying. And to be fair, my partner wasn’t really that abusive. It was more the lies.. but you are suffering abuse. Mental abuse.. and it will make you very ill. You may start suffering depression and you won’t even know it. I had to seek counselling in the end. I was getting counselling while he continued using that junk, without a care in the world.
Don’t you think you deserve more? Even if you can’t see yourself in another relationship and still love him, as I do my fella.. you deserve to be loved and cared for, and supported (emotionally and materially). Is he doing that?