I can’t get over this latest betrayal. He went into recovery, which is outstanding for him… and I KNEW he’s lapse. I knew he would and told him. But I made it clear..BE HONEST TO ME. And DON’T give out your number to these slags again.
He did both.
And to exacerbate it, he emailed me and said he wasn’t so much lying to me to hide the truth, as to protect me from it. Spoken as only a true addict in denial could speak. I gave him a hard hitting reply, and blocked him.
I just have to deal with any post he sends, (right not just not opening it is my best move) and count down the days until I feel he is out of my life.
So glad I didn’t have kids, and thank God not married or living together.. my God, you did 20 odd years. No… 2 years of dragging me down has taken its toll. If I don’t walk away whilst I am strong enough to, I don’t think I ever will.
Hope you are ok. Thanks for your advice. It’s good to be pre-armed and shared others’ experiences. It reminds us we are not alone in this.