Hi Zen, you’re exactly right, and I’m trying my hardest to see it from a different angle too. I think I remember reading your story, I don’t know about you but since my partner initially broke up with me he has been stonewalling me and when I decided to stand up for myself he got pretty nasty, told me I needed to go and ‘fix myself’ etc. His behaviour and personality has changed completely out of the blue, I don’t know what he’s doing but I’m presuming he’s decided to go down that path again. I’ve tried to reach out and still tell him I love him and that I’m there for him but I just get ignored. Somehow the more he’s being an arse, the more it’s giving me the strength to move on, like you said the drugs will always win unless they are ready to really commit to kicking the habit. I know I just need to leave him to it and I know I deserve better, it’s just hard when you love the ‘sober’ them and had so much faith in them like you said. Even though it’s incredibly painful now, I think our break ups are probably the best for us long term, for our health, happiness and sanity x
