Hi Wenray,
Thank you for posting.I’m sorry to read your story and feel for you having to make the decisions you are facing.
If you would like to talk with people who may be able to help you find a way forward please contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers support to people who are dealing with a partner’s addictive behaviours. We have trained and experienced people who you could talk with if you get in touch. They will understand what you are dealing with and will also be able to signpost you to other services available for you.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck with everything.