My ex has changed completely from a loving loyal family man to an absolute monster. We was together 22 years. No issues other than normal family life ups and downs. Then he took this drug and everything changed. He is emotionless, cheated on me and become unrecognizable. It’s sad because I know this isn’t him. I don’t think he understands what’s going on himself as he just looks confused, however blames me for EVERYTHING. He won’t read all this because he doesn’t see he has an issue and on top of that seems to lie about his drug use – says he ain’t got an issue. I got the old classic lines about not being in love and all the rest of it. I’m tired of blame – I mean how did I make him cheat on me, lie constantly and become nasty! I didn’t change he did. At first I couldn’t eat, sleep, cried for days/weeks/ months and my hair fell out. Hurt is definitely a word Id use.
We wasn’t even his rock bottom. So now the basement will have to catch up with him one day.
All I can do is look after our two girls and rebuild my life.
I’m sad for my family and yours and all the families that have broken down due to cocaine or whatever substances.
Pleased you’re adamant you wont use again, and that it no longer controls your life.
Cocaine is the road to ruin.
PS That’s nice to hear and I’m sure you’ll go on to be the father your children deserve