Hi ButtonBoy, I shed a few tears when I read your post this morning, I am so pleased for you. You and I were going through really bad times with our sons at about the same time last year and I too felt the same complete despair. My son too is now clean since about September and is working, attending therapy and daily NA and AA, he is even supporting others. He has even started to do nice things for us, whereas previously he would only contact if he needed money…which hadn’t happened for so many years. You are absolutely right though the rehab, laying awake all night, constant worrying and ‘helping’ didn’t make any difference! The decision to be clean came from him in the end , not sure what the turning point was, but after 7 long years he decided to stop. Like you I worry every day, his MH is Often fragile but the signs are positive. Just wanted to say to those of you in this awful situation to not give up hope xx