My partner has gone. He spoke to his key worker and wouldnt take my calls, just told me to talk to her. I think I’m in shock as to how quickly everything fell apart. I still don’t really understand whats happened. He spoke to his key worker and myself about getting clean and hasnt. I found out yesterday he spent the last 2 weeks sleeping rough and using drugs. This was after he’d asked to come back and told me he was clean, i couldnt get any confirmation from his key worker as she wouldnt respond to me. I know this probably sounds muddled but my head is all over the place. He disappeared again yesterday and I’ve not heard from him since. I’ve laid awake most of the night and the only thing I keep going back to is that I don’t think hes ever loved our new baby and possibly not loved me. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I feel relief but heartbreak as well and now I’m panicking about how long I can spend with my baby before trying to get work and starting all over again.
