cocaine husband
Lockdown has been hard and all of the issues you experienced have been worsen.
I am sorry to hear that things have been extremely difficult for you and you wee boy.
In respect of legal route I don’t think you will have any issues with ironing out a supervised plan maybe use a Contact Centre.
Woman Aid have an outreach service that will support and understand exactly “where you are coming from” and the fears you expressed. They will be able to advise re: lawyers too.
In addition its website also have a great Freedom Programme that you can do online too.
It sounds like your husband is emotional abusive and controlling and all that blame will “Get to you” eroding your self confidence and belief in yourself.
As for the cocaine husband- its impossible to reason with someone who is “out their face” or live is “a drug/cocaine”.
I think you will need to time to-morn the man you loved and lost (so to speak). Mourn the dreams you had of a happy life together.
And remind yourself none of this is your fault. You are worth so much more.
And keep posting