Thank you for your reply. I will check out that freedom programme and womens aid. I gave been recommended womens aid in my area but hadn’t had the courage to go yet.
You are right about needing to mourn my old life and husband. I have felt a lot like he died which is horrible when you live together. I hate looking at old pictures and remembering our life. Things were not always perfect but we knew we loved each other and we were so happy when we had our son. Now he says things like he never wanted a child and makes out that our life before was horrible. I think once I found out he was taking cocaine in july last year I actually felt better because before that I had over 2 years of him telling me that all his problems were his work, me and our son and i believed him and tried to make things better but of course i couldn’t.