Hi PinkWings, your story is like a mirror of my own. I have only joined this forum today and posted. I can’t give you any advise but I think you know in your heart as I do, that you did the right thing ‘kicking him out’. My addicts key worker said to me This is HER addiction, not yours, but in a way it is, we live the desperation of it with them. I have put myself in danger many times and reading your story , I’m sure you have too. It’s going to be a hard road for both of us and I’m not totally sure I can stick to it. I have found that the website Drugfam is very good, founded by a mother who lost her son to drugs. The people on the other end of the line have all gone through it. I ring them often when I am going through a crisis, and while it does not solve the issue, just for a few days it helps my resolve to stay strong, so that gives me some peace for a short while. I wish you all the best
