Hi. I totally get it. My 23 Yr old son has been suffering from ptsd and very complicated emotional issues for 5 years now. He is on a shed load of prescription meds including the equivalent of 360mg morphine a day. I’m a nurse and have lost lots of jobs as he self harms and ends up where I work. I suspected he was injecting his prescription medication and turned out to be right. But just in the last few months I found out he’s been using heroin and cocaine, weed whatever else. He is struggling to have any sort of normal exsistance and I have now paid nearly 2k in drug debts so he doesn’t get beaten up. As well as this he’s wasted over 6k in benefits and he still owes money. Due to severity of his self harm he wouldn’t survive a beating so I’m held over a barrel all the time to pay of these thugs.
I can’t afford to do this and my husband walked out a few weeks ago because 8 didn’t tell him I’d paid quite so much so he felt hurt and betrayed.. I’m losing my sanity and my life is miserable and I can’t think straight. We’ve nearly lost our son on several occasions over the last 5 years due to self harm so I’m extra protective… I feel trapped. If I say I’m going to the police he begs me not too as it’ll make it worse for him.. How much worse does it have to get. My husband came back afwtr one night but the strain is so difficult between us. We’re doing our best to cope.
My son apparently agreed to sell drugs for these dealers so he could get some for himself, he wouldn’t sell them but took them all over a period of time and that’s why he owes so much.. I have nightmares, I cant focus on my relationships with others and my work and health is suffering and I feel railroaded and hate it when I see his number come up in my phone.. More money. ????