I 100% agree with him not focusing on anything but himself, he told me at the start of the semi argument he needs 3 months – to which I said take what you want, but I am not going to sit here and wait forever, so then it turned into ok we give it a go now but not a chance I would cope with him and I was more of an end of life girl to settle down with and he doesn’t want to ruin how we are. Which then in the morning went to hes not told any lies but he feels like a shell and just litrally doesn’t care, then later in the day he phoned and I got the don’t think of me don’t contact me, you won’t hear from me again he ruins everyone’s lives and he’s done.
I know he can be so sucessful which is what kills me about it all he’s really intelligent and every time I see him do what he does it’s just disappointing.
I’ve never been one to go on about what he does as I know it doesn’t fix it, escaping reality is what he’s addicted to, but this time I litrally lost the plot, having spoken to him on the phone a few times since rehab I could tell he was in his ‘normal’ mind which is rare I think I’ve seen it maybe 4 times in 3 years, so I thought maybe just maybe he’s got some of his shit together enough so I can help with the better reality part.
I don’t even know what to do about it now he’s blocked me on most things, feel like I need to say look I respect you and sorry for pushing it but I’ll be there if he needs me.
It’s not small bags he’s doing it’s more like £600 over 24 hours