Yes! I realised he was on it the second time I met him but it wasn’t the usual nipping off all night so I presumed it was just a pre going out thing, till we got home and he was sniffing constantly from 2am till about 6am and not even lining it up :/
after that weekend he said when he slips he slips of the cliff but hes going to be sober and make it up to me as he hates himself, the next time I saw him he was fine so again I thought it’s ok he is in control of it .. Stupid of me!
Yeah he’s doing them once a week online but he says it’s because he has to do them to shut every one up and conform.
He said on Monday morning he doesn’t need to take it and he doesn’t feel like taking it now, but he was drinking so it’s clear he cant just be on nothing!
He is manipulative but the problem is I’ve dealt with manipulative people all my life, so I see it and call him on it I dont just suck it up, hes said in the past I am one of the only people that stand up to him and obviously the truth is hard to handle clean or not this time.
I just really don’t want it left like this as I don’t want this argument and him not wanting to talk to me to be how it ends, before we’ve always just been ok the times we have not been together so I feel like if anything were to happen I’ve left it on bad terms even though it’s him blaming my truthful words and not being calm – again manipulative I know!