It’s difficult I understand that. I think sometimes we sit in our own expectations of how we would like things to be, and that sounds as though you’ve found comfort in the ways he has supported you previously.
We all know there’s little we can do to pull them out of the darkness they find themselves in, and although he has helped pull you through previously you was present In all that too. What I’m saying is you can be there for him whenever he may contact but he has to be also. He has to be willing otherwise everything else is just words. Words are one thing, but action is another and often people in active addiction often fall short of this one as the pull of that drug is far to strong.
I think many COCAINE users sit in a state of confusion, as honestly it’s the brain chemistry that is unbalanced.
Letting go of something you love isn’t easy, but I guess you have to be mindful of what it is you are letting go of and what you are holding onto.
Of course you can be there for him, but don’t forget to be there for yourself also, because otherwise you will end up bit by bit losing yourself.