I understand. Im sorry you’re feeling this way. You must be in shock. It’s awful I know. You’re not alone and you’re definitely not a fool. You’re heartbroken. It’s heartbreaking. You need as much support as you can get so talk to friends and family. There is plenty you can do – for yourself. Brace yourself though. I hope he can turn things around I really do. I think you probably need to sit down and have a talk with him about this situation. Try to be patient and lean on one another. It’s emotive at the moment. It’s not easy at all I’m only to aware of that, however you need to probably start by taking care of yourself. If he wants to change and get help then that’s the first step. Maintain some healthy boundaries and stick with them as it might be a rocky road from here on now.