Hi Dazza,
As the wife of a recovering addict, you might need to give her time.
You’ll go through a period of about 6-8 weeks of feeling crap, but the end result will be the best thing that ever happened to you.
My husband was doing coke daily for a long time, and he’s 5 months clean. I did stick with him, because I thought if I didn’t he would spiral into self destruct and our child might end up with no dad. I think if we didnt have a child I probably wouldn’t have stayed. The negatives outweighed the positives, and I was scared of him. He never physically abused me, but the mental abuse was possibly even worse. He too made accusations of my fidelity, because he was paranoid, and also because he had been unfaithful he assumed I must be too.
Don’t give up giving up, give her time, give her space. Let her know you love her and apologise. It doesn’t make you weak saying sorry. Time is a healer, you have to give up for you, not for anyone else.
I hope you have some support around you. My husband ate quite a lot in the first couple of months of stopping, dont worry about that, he’s back to normal weight now.
Stay off the beer, eat well, take up some exercise and you can be you again, and not a slave to an evil drug that has taken the old you and crumpled you up.
Here if you need to talk 🙂