I 100% don’t blame you for feeling like this. I get what you are saying.
I’m def piecing things together, I was angry but I’ve become less angry and more sad.
I’m quite a fiery person, so probably why my husband is a weaker type. We compliment each other. But now I had no clue how weak.
I am feeling exactly the same as you. I found out 29th May (I won’t ever forget date) and I could have just packed his bags then and there. But we have three sons together and I owe them to not leave him.
I’ve bought tests, first one he will do tonight. I’m hoping it will show positive. So then I can see a negative come.
Then if he fails a test from then on we will be finished. (I’m seeing the first three negatives as my full stop date… does that make sense?)
I bloody pray he isn’t like all the partners I’ve read about on here, relapsing time and time again. I hope that now it’s all in the open he will sort it properly.
For you this being a second marriage must be even harder. You were brave in the first place to marry again!
I doubt I’d ever want another man again. He’s all I’ve ever wanted, he isn’t perfect and drives me mad, but I honestly would never want anyone else. I’ve been with him since I was 18 and 22years is a crazy length of time to loose. I think if this ends I won’t be able to see him again, I’d cave in.