Hi Kklost.
I am so sorry to hear what your going through.
I am afraid it won’t get easier for quite a while, it’s not just an overnight fix. However much I wish it could be.
I have tried to push my boyfriend to end his cocaine addiction for nearly 3 years now. Rehab, doctors, CA meetings, many other meetings, counselling. I took him out of the country for a month. It was amazing. The day we came home he used.
I’ve come to the conclusion I cannot save him, and if I continue down this path I will loose my own life and health.
I really hope he can beat this, but remember, you deserve happiness and a life without cocaine.
Take care x