Morning Paul, sorry to hear all this.
I don’t know nothing about drug addiction, but my partner is addicted to alcohol. Even though I have told her a thousand times it’s ok to drink in front of me (I rather see what she’s drinking just in case she collapses again, that way I know what to tell paramedics) but she won’t. She rather hide it from me every day, she rather stress about drinking and hiding it from me then to actually drink in front of me.
She Says, she is embarrassed about it. She made one bad choice in her life and it’s been with her every day since, she doesn’t want me to see her like that.
I honestly don’t know what to say to you to help, but if you need someone to listen, I’ll be here.