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Dot im happy your clean and can see your reasons for doing it, you keep it up and enjoy your kids. he said half a gram sometimes a gram a day, or every other day. But to me im not sure how much that is because iv never done it.

Either way if its a little or alot i ignored my gut and my suspicions were right. Hes been doing it more than ever for the past 4/5 month after promising to get clean at xmas. He just keeps saying i dont understand and i know i cant because im not an addict but i do want to try and understand. I dont know what he means by this. All he keeps saying is everythings not black and white.