Same it’s so hard it’s like the old them died now this new horrible person has been born and it’s a grieving process but u have no answers as to y it’s a circle of emotions constantly – iv just got to live in hope that one day he will realise and be sorry until then I’m trying to crack on but I’m so so angry that I’m left to pick up the pieces and left with 3 children on my own that he shows very little interest in and I just wana shake him and smack him in the face to wake him up get through to him and all he’s saying is it’s laughable u think I have a drug problem no other answers !! There’s so many little things that I think cocaine is the answer for him doing that or this and it makes sense so clearly but same time I’m questioning ia it just me am I just imagining it I duno !
I remember in around November maybe my son had FaceTimed him one Saturday eve and he was at Mcds drive through- the kids got fed up talking and disappeared but he didn’t end the ft kept taking to me in bits or kids to and from and he got out of the car went in his boot for few minutes then came bk to the seat and was sniffly put a tissue up his nose – I didn’t know about the coke then and said wat the help was that he was like I was just getting something out the boot I said did u just sniff sumat and he was so defensive but laughing and like don’t be so stupid I’m simply blowing my nose ?!! And then I thought the coke would make sense to his behaviour but chose to believe him ! Now I’m thinking he defo did do that thinking I was clueless ?! Xx