Si today has been a hard day for me. I’m on day 19. Not in terms of cravings thats been so easy. But we was in hotel with the kids and my ex was messaging someone else wmand said something like just brought the kids to see Daz ????. Instead of getting angry I do want to see my kids but it wound me up so I asked if she could leave. I di want to to see my kids but I think whilst she is here it’s not good.
I was a just angry but didnt want an arguement to erupt in front of the kids..
My point is no wonder she doesn’t want to try while messaging other people. I cant stop her or influence what she does but don’t drag me down while I’m trying. Doing my best here. At least I didnt say horrible things like i used to and i just politely said are you okay to go.
I’ve got to think of my feelings now aswell. What winds me up is years ago when I left her I come back to work things out for her years ago when I was clean I chose her. Just a kick in the teeth for me and I think I’m struggling to move on while shes sat around. I dislike who shes turned into but I guess I created this monster…