Hi Foxy,
I’m sorry to hear about how your husband’s recovery is so stressful for you. I can imagine that it must feel overwhelming, especially in these lock down times.
If you would like to talk to some one who would understand what you are dealing with, and would offer you help please contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that supports people coping with the addiction of a family member. We have trained people who are very experienced at supporting people through this that you could talk with if you contact us.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope this helps.
Good luck.