Thank you for sharing your story.
I’m sorry that you are not able to speak about your boyfriend’s addiction with your family and friends. I imagine that must feel quite lonely.
If you feel that it would be helpful to talk with people who would understand what you are dealing with please contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity set up to support those people, like yourself who are affected by a partner’s addiction, as we know how hard this is.
If you contact us I can put you in touch with one of our trained people called Family Friends. They have lots of experience and talking with one of them might help you to find a way forward.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.