Hi Zoe, after all that time with your guard up and then you allow your heart to be open – now this. Well, all I can say is try not to beat yourself up for that, it’s ok to have opened your heart, it shows your love for another person. You are not to blame here.
Unfortunately, lies, betrayal, and all the rest of it comes with the territory with this drug. I think what hurts the most, well from my perspective is the Betrayal! The break down in trust, and the idea that somehow”we are imagining things”.
God I was blamed, lied to, cheated on and so much more so I feel your pain.
He really needs to want to help himself, and that starts with being honest. If his actively used then the pull of that drug has probably got control of him. It’s awful, and I hate that drug.
It ruins people. Maybe you are his world, but at the moment he isnt in the “real world”. Sometimes they say they want to change but put little action into it.
Focus on you and your kids. Be kind to yourself and let him go sort himself out. Women are not rehabilitation centers for people with problems! You/ we deserve better