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So update .. I’ve heard from him!

He lent me some money a few months ago and was asking for it back .. apparently to pay a drug debt, I gave it him as to be honest he sounded insane .. told him first and last time and it’s only as I owed him.

He then went on to say he had to leave as he can’t handle the truths I tell him and he can’t deal with my crying and the guilt he feels.

We had a huge convo and basically he’s said that he realises he needs to sort himself out and wants us to just be chilled out while he starts to love himself again.

It’s all good talk and self reflective for once. He’s said he doesn’t expect for me to wait for him .. So we will see but regardless I’ll carry on with my life.

Draining nightmare!