What holds you to him? I know for example I’m a bit of a care taker – always wants to fix something. You definitely deserve more than what this man is showing you. I can bet you’re a great person, and kind (strong tho), an empath probably. Please don’t wait about for someone who acts this way. If he really wanted to then he would change. He sounds manipulative and all this bull about other girls and you being the “end plan”. Yeh righto – you shouldn’t be anyone’s second best or back up plan because that’s how I’ve processed that one.
Let this one go and if it’s meant to be truly then it’ll come back anyway. Nothing that isn’t for us will slip through our hands.
Focus on you. At first all I did was think about my ex, but I’ve learnt to consider me and things improved gradually.