It’s weird as I used to text and get no reply so it’s like I am conditioned that he only talks when he wants to. Hes always told me hes selfish .. usually he says he goes silent so I can find someone who deserves me or he’s got too much going on and right now it’s so he can sort himself out but what about what I want, I know if he is actually 100% sorting himself out it is about him but like I said to my friend earlier if he’s not I’ll be fuming at myself. He said the other day he sees me as family and I have traits of his mum and his sister and I think this is where I go wrong he thinks of me under the unconditional love no matter what he does I’ll be there to make it ok just in a different way, so I totally need to be less avalible. In Decemeber he was none stop text and I never really replied until he came to the house and posted a letter and seeing as he drove 40 mins to post it I cracked :/
